The mind is flexible; a hallucination, an invention of the imagination to justify the mandate that Varric's death be disguised. You were speaking only to yourself, and hearing whatever seemed most rational to you in the moment.

You will not remember anyone else acknowledging Varric's survival, of course. Nor would he have spoken to any of the others; the illusion is restricted only to you.

[It was a fragile illusion, of course. If someone had pointed it out directly, that Varric was dead, if they had argued it rather than simply accepting Rook's behavior as a product of grief and stress and the peculiarities of the individual... Well. That might have made a different end to the story.]

Ir abelas, Kion. I am sorry.